Bradley Bradley Bradley

Boyfriend drama ms (that he doesn't even know about)

Good morning.. I just want to see you to cuddle you.  I get that you're down at the pub or with your 'friends' or whatever most of the time when you're not at work. But I literally do nothing outside of work. I just study, work, work and sleep. I don't think you realise it hurts me when you don't answer my calls because you're with your friends. But when you're with me? You're on the phone to them most of the time, or if the phone rings you have to jump up to get it. It's constantly going off and you always see it but when it's me texting you or calling you, you don't see or hear it? How does that work? I need to know that you are putting in 100%. That you want to get a place together. That you want a life and a family together. Not that you want to spend more time with your friends then you so with me. I know I'm probably wrong but I just can't seem to shake this feeling im not the first priority anymore. And I'm sorry, but if that's true? You just don't care about me! I mean, I asked you out on Saturday night to the movies. What was your answer? "I'd footy training isn't on". So if you don't get to see the boys. I'm trying here! I'm trying so damn hard. Hell I even started working 2 just so that I could have enough money to get a place with you. But that doesn't seem like you even want to get a place with me anymore. I need some assurances here. I need to know that I'm not number 2 or 3 or 10 on your priority list. I need to know that instead of going out to play footy or tennis or going out at night to get drunk with your friends, you would rather spend your time at home, with me. Sure 2 or 3 or eveb 4 nights a week whatever. But when im spending one night a week with you, Maybe 2? It hurts and i feel like I come after everyone else.  I just don't understand how I put so much effort in day in a day out but I feel lije you don't put any in. Help me out here, make me feel  a little better about us, about our relationship. I just want to be with you! If I felt like you wanted to be with me constantly like i do, why would I feel like this? I hope you see this because I just know I won't have the courage to say it to your face. I just hope you will love me with all your heart and start to make the changes I need. Like not hanging out with girls that I hate and I know are trying to make me jelous with you. It's been a year together for us and i want it to be a he'll of a lot more. Just help me out here and make me feel like you want it too. Please baby. I'm begging you.

I love you.  So much. Xx